sad :(

i wanna go get a holloween costumme, but i started up at my 2nd job again, and have a midterm next week! dnt think imma be doin anything for it, :(

fucking bored

at school. wish i didnt have to go, but having an associates degree is like a high school diploma now a days. I've been poor my whole life, i just want to be comfortable for once. feel like a sell out, but that's how life is. People can act like money doesnt matter but it fucking does. I just want it to be over with cuz working and school fucking sucks. I'd rather just work.

oh ya! and I just got back from boston! i'll put pics up next time. it was awsome. wish i could run away to boston

FUCKIN SOUP DIET!

ok so I just started this really popular diet which revolves around a basic vegetable soup.
and like the first day you can only eat that and soup and fruit, the second day vegetables and vegetable soup, and then like banans and milk with soup the day after that, and then like some kind of protein (it says beef but i dont eat that) with soup. It seemed easy cuz you can eat as much as you want of the soup, and I love soup, but i just want some fuckin bread or something, ooh or some tofu. I like love cooking and this is really hard for me. but I'm a lard ass and it needs to be done. I hope it works! has anyone ever tried it before? does it work well? i know its made for heart patients that need to lose weight.

Besides that, I had like insane zombie dreams all night! even after i woke up and went back to sleep! it was rad! hahaha

School

started last week. Man I'm already getting beat down.... can't wait until all the homework kicks in! ugh. oh ya AND i'm moving by the end of the month. My house is like a damn peatree dish for fungus!!! and my fiance doesn't want to move so I'm forced to drag him out of there before we both die! it's really disgusting but I took pictures of how bad the mold is. its pretty insane. i have pictures Collapse )

good lord!

I'm getting anxiety attacks about this holiday season! I have no dinero!
i really wish I wasn't a poor fuck! imma have to give out like home made bathtub booze and knit scarves or some shit. haha.
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    Elf soundtrack

hahaha

the new theme I'm using reminds me of Doogie Howzard or however u spell it! remember at the end, he'd be typing his daily lesson on that old ass computer? hahaha
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    Silence... sigh

Im going to be married soon....

brian bought the ring but he hasn't proposed which is supposed to be the secret! :) he's so cute. but i don't know how my parents will react. They baby me even tho im out on my own now. I couldn't be happier! No other person could be more perfect for me (perfect in general). We know what each other is thinking, we have the same sense of humor, he's sensitive but VERY manly at the same time, he's hot as fuck!, and 6'5! what more could I want?? Life is going to be awsome. Being able to have sex with your best friend is the fuckin best! (sorry brit, this is gunna have to be the end of our affair) hahahaha jk. i'll still c ya on the side. hahahaha

my baby!
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    Pink ( on the radio ) for the fifth time in a half hour